Eightieth Entry
Today is the last day of the year. Tonight, I am going to join my family at my cousins house to play some cards and to say farewell to 2002.
I really would have rather spent the New Years Eve with my friends, but that never works out. They are all up there and I'm down here. I like hanging out with my family here. They are cool and laid back. Pretty representative of the Tulare area, I suppose.
I have been giving a lot of thought to the fact that I have noone to kiss at the stroke of midnight. No one to intimately share this moment with. It has crossed my mind several times that I could have had someone to relieve my loneliness had I not been so selfish and frustrated. But its all for the better.
The relationship I was in was extremely unhealthy. Not good for both parties, though I can see that more than she can. I came within a blink of an eye to asking her to marry me. It would have been wrong. It's not her fault I am alone on New Years though, it's mine.
So back to square one...alone on New Years.
Maybe it's just my internal biological clock ticking or something, but now more than ever, I want to get married and start a family. Buy a house and make it a home...my home. Live the life of a happily married man with a few children running around causing "mischief".
The more I think of it, the more I wish it to happen.
So, to recap...I am alone on New Years Eve, I avoided perhaps the biggest mistake of my life at the expense of being alone during one of the most reflective times in the year, and I am alone on New Years Eve.
I hate Indian Givers.
12.31.2002
12.11.2002
Seventy-Ninth Entry
It was really foggy on my drive home from work today...unusually foggy. It was kinda cool. It was just pitch black all around me except in front where the headlights were shining.
I went to the Chiro today at lunch. I swear, today he tried to kill me. I even asked him if he was trying to break my ribs. He just laughed nervously as if he'd just been found out. Then he informed me that today would be my last treatment since I am doing really well.
Later in the afternoon, I went to the doctor. She said that since I was feeling a lot better, she would discharge me. She also warned me that if anything flares up again, I need to go back before 30 days have passed or else the Workmans Comp dies.
Yesterday was officially the longest time I had spent away from the office during working hours. We had the field review for five of the projects we are working on. For those of you who don't know...I mean...for the one person who actually reads this(Lisa)...a field review is a review process done with CalTrans for all projects that are requiring Federal money. It's basically just a way for CalTrans to take their frustrations out on smaller governmental agencies. Fun. So, yesterday, me, Marcia(boss), Jean(head of Operations), Bill(engineer), Kham(engineer), Randy and Kelly(CalTrans) all trekked out into the middle of nowhere, and Dinuba. There were a few stops along the way for the CalTrans people to get out of their truck, walk around a little bit, try to sound smart and intimidate us, and basically just make the process longer than it really needed to be.
One plus about it all yesterday though. After it was all done, we all (minus CalTrans) went to a Chinese restaurant in Dinuba where we(I) totally pigged out on Chinese food. My fortune said something like, "You are on the right road to happiness," which made me think that Tulare is the right place for me. But yeah right, 1 in 8 people at that restaurant yesterday got the same thing.
I was kinda stressing about my truck since Saturday cuz the "Service Engine Soon" light came on and scared me. Well, I took the truck in yesterday and it was just a malfunctioning sensor. They replaced it for free of course(good warranty).
I really can't think of anything else to say.
It was really foggy on my drive home from work today...unusually foggy. It was kinda cool. It was just pitch black all around me except in front where the headlights were shining.
I went to the Chiro today at lunch. I swear, today he tried to kill me. I even asked him if he was trying to break my ribs. He just laughed nervously as if he'd just been found out. Then he informed me that today would be my last treatment since I am doing really well.
Later in the afternoon, I went to the doctor. She said that since I was feeling a lot better, she would discharge me. She also warned me that if anything flares up again, I need to go back before 30 days have passed or else the Workmans Comp dies.
Yesterday was officially the longest time I had spent away from the office during working hours. We had the field review for five of the projects we are working on. For those of you who don't know...I mean...for the one person who actually reads this(Lisa)...a field review is a review process done with CalTrans for all projects that are requiring Federal money. It's basically just a way for CalTrans to take their frustrations out on smaller governmental agencies. Fun. So, yesterday, me, Marcia(boss), Jean(head of Operations), Bill(engineer), Kham(engineer), Randy and Kelly(CalTrans) all trekked out into the middle of nowhere, and Dinuba. There were a few stops along the way for the CalTrans people to get out of their truck, walk around a little bit, try to sound smart and intimidate us, and basically just make the process longer than it really needed to be.
One plus about it all yesterday though. After it was all done, we all (minus CalTrans) went to a Chinese restaurant in Dinuba where we(I) totally pigged out on Chinese food. My fortune said something like, "You are on the right road to happiness," which made me think that Tulare is the right place for me. But yeah right, 1 in 8 people at that restaurant yesterday got the same thing.
I was kinda stressing about my truck since Saturday cuz the "Service Engine Soon" light came on and scared me. Well, I took the truck in yesterday and it was just a malfunctioning sensor. They replaced it for free of course(good warranty).
I really can't think of anything else to say.
12.07.2002
Seventy-Eighth Entry
As a result of scientific research and precise polling, I have determined that my readership has declined to 1. Yes, I now only have 1 regular reader. Is it really that hard to take five minutes out of a day to read someones journal? I wouldn't think so. But apparently it is. My readership numbers tell the story. I did have a readership all the way up to about 3. I shall call that period in my blogging, the "Golden Age". Hopefully thats a little premature, and the Golden Age is yet to come.
The reason I felt the need to blog is because I am watching Full Metal Jacket on TV and I just heard the absolute funniest line in any movie in the history of film. And since most of my friends are of the Asian Persuasion, I felt, hopefully, this quote would be appreciated and not offend anyone.
As you know, Full Metal Jacket is about the Vietnam War. The Americans that were there didn't really like the Vietnamese so every other word, you hear "fuckin VC" or "gook". This phrase is the absolute funniest thing in the world. "Inside every gook is an American trying to get out." I have never heard anything with such twisted logic! It is sooooo funny!!
That is all.
As a result of scientific research and precise polling, I have determined that my readership has declined to 1. Yes, I now only have 1 regular reader. Is it really that hard to take five minutes out of a day to read someones journal? I wouldn't think so. But apparently it is. My readership numbers tell the story. I did have a readership all the way up to about 3. I shall call that period in my blogging, the "Golden Age". Hopefully thats a little premature, and the Golden Age is yet to come.
The reason I felt the need to blog is because I am watching Full Metal Jacket on TV and I just heard the absolute funniest line in any movie in the history of film. And since most of my friends are of the Asian Persuasion, I felt, hopefully, this quote would be appreciated and not offend anyone.
As you know, Full Metal Jacket is about the Vietnam War. The Americans that were there didn't really like the Vietnamese so every other word, you hear "fuckin VC" or "gook". This phrase is the absolute funniest thing in the world. "Inside every gook is an American trying to get out." I have never heard anything with such twisted logic! It is sooooo funny!!
That is all.
12.06.2002
Seventy-Seventh Entry
Renewed Hope
Today was a good day. Three really good things happened today.
First, I decided to initiate a search for another job. I have been looking vigilantely online all day (even at work) for a new job. Nothing really promising yet, and I won't really apply for anything til probably mid-late January just to ensure I can still get my 6 mos at Tulare County. It also allows time for work to get good enough for me to be able to change my mind and stay.
Second, I got a call from the Chiropractor the County is sending me to and they received a fax from AIG saying that my claim is good and I can see a Chiropractor! Yea!! Hopefully the Chiropractor, whom I have an appointment with on Monday, will make this backpain go away.
Third, I finally fixed my computer after like a month without being able to play songs or videos. There was some other software that I had DL'ed that was conflicting with the Windows Media Player. I tried to DL other players, but they all sucked. So now I have my regular video and audio access back!! Very good.
So things are definitely looking up for me now...I'm not nearly as depressed as I was yesterday or earlier this week. Tomorrow, I was planning on going to Fresno for some congratulatory pearl tea and a trip to Best Buy. Not to buy anything, just to gawk at all the things I want. Or maybe I'll just hang out here in Tulare and convalesce. I guess at one point this weekend I need to get up and do laundry and clean my house.
Just a readership check...email me if you still read this. I may be writing just for my own enjoyment. In which case I will stop altogether.
Renewed Hope
Today was a good day. Three really good things happened today.
First, I decided to initiate a search for another job. I have been looking vigilantely online all day (even at work) for a new job. Nothing really promising yet, and I won't really apply for anything til probably mid-late January just to ensure I can still get my 6 mos at Tulare County. It also allows time for work to get good enough for me to be able to change my mind and stay.
Second, I got a call from the Chiropractor the County is sending me to and they received a fax from AIG saying that my claim is good and I can see a Chiropractor! Yea!! Hopefully the Chiropractor, whom I have an appointment with on Monday, will make this backpain go away.
Third, I finally fixed my computer after like a month without being able to play songs or videos. There was some other software that I had DL'ed that was conflicting with the Windows Media Player. I tried to DL other players, but they all sucked. So now I have my regular video and audio access back!! Very good.
So things are definitely looking up for me now...I'm not nearly as depressed as I was yesterday or earlier this week. Tomorrow, I was planning on going to Fresno for some congratulatory pearl tea and a trip to Best Buy. Not to buy anything, just to gawk at all the things I want. Or maybe I'll just hang out here in Tulare and convalesce. I guess at one point this weekend I need to get up and do laundry and clean my house.
Just a readership check...email me if you still read this. I may be writing just for my own enjoyment. In which case I will stop altogether.
Seventy-Sixth Entry
So after a futile attempt tonight to find what kind of beanie I want from my Festivist buddy, I decided that decisions on hear wear are better left to me. So I pulled the beanie off the list.
Now I am realizing that the person I picked for Festivist has completely impossible things to find on their list. Where the hell am I gonna find a blankety blank blank blank??? I have absolutely no idea.
I am totally starting to get out of the holiday spirit. I have to work. No more Winter Break as was the usual during my collegiate days.
I was reminded by Jane at work today that I am going to work for the next 40 years of my life. "Is that true?" I thought. Yes it is, young Phillip. You are going to work your ass off in a job you hate for the rest of my 'good years'. And by 'good years', I mean the years when I can actually get out and enjoy stuff. After 65, I guess I'll be happy just breathing and waking up in the morning.
So while I was having this uber-depressing conversation with Jane, I felt a sudden sense of impending doom. I am never going to do anything with my life! I always thought that I would be able to do something to help humanity in some way. What the fuck is paving roads and covering landfills gonna do for humanity?? A lot less than I hoped I'd be doing.
As long as I am stuck in an office, crunching numbers, I will never be satisfied. At least for now. I'm sure the system will break me, as it does everyone and I will become 'another brick in the wall' as it were(does that even make sense?).
So yeah, my depressing conversation with Jane this morning, and my triple-depressing conversation with Phil yesterday have really put me in a 'fuck-me' mood. 'Fuck-me' for wanting to be a productive member of society. 'Fuck-me' for wanting to do something more than sit behind a desk all day.
Whatever.
I finally got my Three Month Review today. I got a score of 6 out of 10. Please, close your mouths, dear readers...allow me to explain. My supervisor believes that noone ever deserves higher than a 6 for doing their job. I was informed that in order to get a 7 or higher, you have to do something really really special like invent a new and improved wheel or something. It's as rare as snow in Honolulu for anyone to get a 7 or higher. So I am happy about that. Does that mean I get a promotion? No. Does that mean I get a raise? No. Does is mean anything? Not really. Just that I am on track to passing probation in another 3 months. We have to have a score of 5 or higher to pass probation. Here's one for the record books...I got a score of 7 for interpersonal relations!! Me, agoraphobic, anxiety attack me got a 7 for interpersonal relations!! Wow.
Yesterday I get a call from the Chiropractor that the County doctor is sending me to for my physical therapy. The very nice and I'm assuming very good looking lady(she gave good phone) at the other end of the phone line told me that the Workmens Comp insurance was investigating my claim further(translation: they think I'm lying and hope that my "symptoms" will go away and they won't have to do anything). That delays the whole thing for 14 days. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. So, since my lame ass HMO doesn't cover Chiros, I can't get the physical therapy that I need. I hate it all!!!
My escape from all this has been TV. It's the one thing I can look forward to everyday. I get up, I turn the TV on while I get ready. I come home for lunch, I turn on the TV. I get home at the end of the day, I turn on the TV. I think I am in love with the TV. TV...will you marry me?? What would our kids look like?????
I get to register for classes at COS on Monday. That should be cool. Goin back to school again. I really miss school. It's a hell of a lot better than this real world. I am going to try to register for beginning Portuguese and beginning Spanish. I really wanted to learn German, but they don't offer a class. I also wanted to take glassblowing, but my aunt says that you have to take a bunch of Art prerequisites. In any case, next January I will hopefully be going to COS part-time.
Also, Monday morning(at 7am!!) I will be going to the dentist. Yea! Finally I can get my Wisdom teeth pulled or something.
That was a long blog, wasn't it.
So after a futile attempt tonight to find what kind of beanie I want from my Festivist buddy, I decided that decisions on hear wear are better left to me. So I pulled the beanie off the list.
Now I am realizing that the person I picked for Festivist has completely impossible things to find on their list. Where the hell am I gonna find a blankety blank blank blank??? I have absolutely no idea.
I am totally starting to get out of the holiday spirit. I have to work. No more Winter Break as was the usual during my collegiate days.
I was reminded by Jane at work today that I am going to work for the next 40 years of my life. "Is that true?" I thought. Yes it is, young Phillip. You are going to work your ass off in a job you hate for the rest of my 'good years'. And by 'good years', I mean the years when I can actually get out and enjoy stuff. After 65, I guess I'll be happy just breathing and waking up in the morning.
So while I was having this uber-depressing conversation with Jane, I felt a sudden sense of impending doom. I am never going to do anything with my life! I always thought that I would be able to do something to help humanity in some way. What the fuck is paving roads and covering landfills gonna do for humanity?? A lot less than I hoped I'd be doing.
As long as I am stuck in an office, crunching numbers, I will never be satisfied. At least for now. I'm sure the system will break me, as it does everyone and I will become 'another brick in the wall' as it were(does that even make sense?).
So yeah, my depressing conversation with Jane this morning, and my triple-depressing conversation with Phil yesterday have really put me in a 'fuck-me' mood. 'Fuck-me' for wanting to be a productive member of society. 'Fuck-me' for wanting to do something more than sit behind a desk all day.
Whatever.
I finally got my Three Month Review today. I got a score of 6 out of 10. Please, close your mouths, dear readers...allow me to explain. My supervisor believes that noone ever deserves higher than a 6 for doing their job. I was informed that in order to get a 7 or higher, you have to do something really really special like invent a new and improved wheel or something. It's as rare as snow in Honolulu for anyone to get a 7 or higher. So I am happy about that. Does that mean I get a promotion? No. Does that mean I get a raise? No. Does is mean anything? Not really. Just that I am on track to passing probation in another 3 months. We have to have a score of 5 or higher to pass probation. Here's one for the record books...I got a score of 7 for interpersonal relations!! Me, agoraphobic, anxiety attack me got a 7 for interpersonal relations!! Wow.
Yesterday I get a call from the Chiropractor that the County doctor is sending me to for my physical therapy. The very nice and I'm assuming very good looking lady(she gave good phone) at the other end of the phone line told me that the Workmens Comp insurance was investigating my claim further(translation: they think I'm lying and hope that my "symptoms" will go away and they won't have to do anything). That delays the whole thing for 14 days. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. So, since my lame ass HMO doesn't cover Chiros, I can't get the physical therapy that I need. I hate it all!!!
My escape from all this has been TV. It's the one thing I can look forward to everyday. I get up, I turn the TV on while I get ready. I come home for lunch, I turn on the TV. I get home at the end of the day, I turn on the TV. I think I am in love with the TV. TV...will you marry me?? What would our kids look like?????
I get to register for classes at COS on Monday. That should be cool. Goin back to school again. I really miss school. It's a hell of a lot better than this real world. I am going to try to register for beginning Portuguese and beginning Spanish. I really wanted to learn German, but they don't offer a class. I also wanted to take glassblowing, but my aunt says that you have to take a bunch of Art prerequisites. In any case, next January I will hopefully be going to COS part-time.
Also, Monday morning(at 7am!!) I will be going to the dentist. Yea! Finally I can get my Wisdom teeth pulled or something.
That was a long blog, wasn't it.
12.02.2002
Seventy-Fifth Entry
There goes my goal of updating my blog at least once a month.
I am now officially 'in dislike' with work. I was 'in hate' last week and the week before(mostly because of my back probs), but after a relaxing Thanksgiving holiday away from the valley, I feel somewhat better about work. Of course, if I was making more money, I would not be anywhere near 'in hate' with work, more like 'in like' or 'in love'. I cannot afford X-mas presents for anyone other than cards and the random Gift Certificate. I tried to complain to others at work, but my complaints fell on deaf ears because we all know there is nothing we can do about it at all. Our first measly raise of 5% comes at 6-mos. and rumor has it that there is another raise of 5% at the beginning of the next year. It is all bullshit and it is stinkin up the place. Our health insurance premium is increasing almost 5 times more than the County's portion is. There goes my 5% raise. It is really disgusting how the County is willing to let us die of hunger and disease.
There is going to be a protest by County Employees tomorrow at the Courthouse or something to protest the state of insurance benefits. I cannot go because, as a probie, I cannot use any vacation hours. So the time picketing would be unpaid time. Oh well. "Heck no, we won't go!!!" or my fav "Donna Martin graduates!!! Donna Martin Graduates!!!"
Other than shitty work, and eating grilled cheese twice a day for the rest of the week, I am doing well. My back is good, as long as I keep my friend Naproxen in my system. Yummm. I got a call from AIG today at work concerning my Workmans Comp claim and they had to verify my story and then they told me that since I did not report the injury in a timely fashion, they may delay my claim for up to 90 days. Merry Christmas to me.
Not to nag on it forever, but it really sucks to have a job that is supposed to be paying good money and where I should be able to afford some of the finer things in life, and it doesn't. I went to school for five fuckin years and what do I have to show for it? A $45,000 debt that instead of shrinking, actually grows because I have to use my CC's more than I did before!
At least the utils are cheaper than I had anticipated. I got the elec bill today and it was only $24. Pretty good I think. Especially considering everything in the house is electric: stove, oven etc. My last Gas bill was like $15. Phone and cable are like 5 times those two combined. Ehhh **shrug**.
Life goes on.
There goes my goal of updating my blog at least once a month.
I am now officially 'in dislike' with work. I was 'in hate' last week and the week before(mostly because of my back probs), but after a relaxing Thanksgiving holiday away from the valley, I feel somewhat better about work. Of course, if I was making more money, I would not be anywhere near 'in hate' with work, more like 'in like' or 'in love'. I cannot afford X-mas presents for anyone other than cards and the random Gift Certificate. I tried to complain to others at work, but my complaints fell on deaf ears because we all know there is nothing we can do about it at all. Our first measly raise of 5% comes at 6-mos. and rumor has it that there is another raise of 5% at the beginning of the next year. It is all bullshit and it is stinkin up the place. Our health insurance premium is increasing almost 5 times more than the County's portion is. There goes my 5% raise. It is really disgusting how the County is willing to let us die of hunger and disease.
There is going to be a protest by County Employees tomorrow at the Courthouse or something to protest the state of insurance benefits. I cannot go because, as a probie, I cannot use any vacation hours. So the time picketing would be unpaid time. Oh well. "Heck no, we won't go!!!" or my fav "Donna Martin graduates!!! Donna Martin Graduates!!!"
Other than shitty work, and eating grilled cheese twice a day for the rest of the week, I am doing well. My back is good, as long as I keep my friend Naproxen in my system. Yummm. I got a call from AIG today at work concerning my Workmans Comp claim and they had to verify my story and then they told me that since I did not report the injury in a timely fashion, they may delay my claim for up to 90 days. Merry Christmas to me.
Not to nag on it forever, but it really sucks to have a job that is supposed to be paying good money and where I should be able to afford some of the finer things in life, and it doesn't. I went to school for five fuckin years and what do I have to show for it? A $45,000 debt that instead of shrinking, actually grows because I have to use my CC's more than I did before!
At least the utils are cheaper than I had anticipated. I got the elec bill today and it was only $24. Pretty good I think. Especially considering everything in the house is electric: stove, oven etc. My last Gas bill was like $15. Phone and cable are like 5 times those two combined. Ehhh **shrug**.
Life goes on.
10.10.2002
Seventy-Fourth Entry
Even though none of you read Portuguese, I found the Big Brother Famosos web page which is the Portuguese version of Big Brother. The Famosos part implies that the houseguests are celebrities in Portugal. Very interesting. Big Brother Famosos. Check it out.
Today at work, I found out that the contract I am working on, which consists of two long asphalt overlay projects(with some road reconstruction) is due on October 28th. I know that I can get this Contract out in time, but hearing the exact deadline for the first time today made me nervous. I am somewhat scared. My first solo project needs to be a complete PS&E(Plans, Specs and E, whatever that is) deliverable on October 28th. Shiver me timbers!!!
Oh yeah, as I was going over the boilerplate for the contract today, I noticed that some of the addresses they spec'd for some of the products needed for roadway safety are completely wrong. Tomorrow, I have the daunting task of trying to call these folks and asking them for their correct address and making sure they still sell the items we need. ARRGH!!!
My brother said that he might be coming down to Tulare this weekend. He was supposed to go to San Diego again, but he found out that Lesters parents are going down there to visit. And partying with someones parents is never fun.
Tomorrow I am going to get up super early and drive to Fresno to get Krispy Kreme to bring to work. They are going to love me!!! That is if I get up on time...approx. 5:30 am.
Even though none of you read Portuguese, I found the Big Brother Famosos web page which is the Portuguese version of Big Brother. The Famosos part implies that the houseguests are celebrities in Portugal. Very interesting. Big Brother Famosos. Check it out.
Today at work, I found out that the contract I am working on, which consists of two long asphalt overlay projects(with some road reconstruction) is due on October 28th. I know that I can get this Contract out in time, but hearing the exact deadline for the first time today made me nervous. I am somewhat scared. My first solo project needs to be a complete PS&E(Plans, Specs and E, whatever that is) deliverable on October 28th. Shiver me timbers!!!
Oh yeah, as I was going over the boilerplate for the contract today, I noticed that some of the addresses they spec'd for some of the products needed for roadway safety are completely wrong. Tomorrow, I have the daunting task of trying to call these folks and asking them for their correct address and making sure they still sell the items we need. ARRGH!!!
My brother said that he might be coming down to Tulare this weekend. He was supposed to go to San Diego again, but he found out that Lesters parents are going down there to visit. And partying with someones parents is never fun.
Tomorrow I am going to get up super early and drive to Fresno to get Krispy Kreme to bring to work. They are going to love me!!! That is if I get up on time...approx. 5:30 am.
10.07.2002
Seventy-Third Entry
I was falling asleep at work today...AGAIN. I have been bedding down at about 7.5 hours before my alarm clock wakes me up, but I lay there forever.
I am soooo tired of my spare room being so messed up that I have to rotate between using the mouse and the keyboard on the same surface.
I have to do laundry before I run out of clothes this week. I will probably do it tomorrow after work. I forgot about it today.
I made a list of Big Ticket items I need to purchase before this house can be called a home...washing machine, guitar...
I need to find a dentist and pay a visit to my Blue Cross assigned doctor in Hanford. Its not that far...just like 20 minutes.
As has been happening a lot recently, my busiest time at work is the 1.5 hours before its time to leave.
Everyone watch Road Rules tonight. My friend Micah, from Boston called me to say that tonights season finale takes place at Cal Poly. Very cool.
Today, more than ever, I felt like a second class citizen at work. I just realized it this instant. I have the oldest computer, the poorest lit cube, no AutoCAD 2000(even if it is Lite). What is up with that?? I guess as long as they keep paying me.
This morning I was all psyched to have been invited to Jack Johnson concert by my then new best friend Jen, only to have my dreams busted into a million pieces after she tells me I can't go anymore cuz I'm not cool enough. :) Just kidding...just a case of miscommunication(hyphenated??)
Surprisingly, my whole house is clean except for the room the computer is in right now. I was looking for something earlier and somehow a grip of papers ended up on the floor. Hm.
I paid all my bills this month. Its good to be making decent money again.(When was I ever making decent money?)
I am going to cancel my cell service soon. The last bill was over $100. Shiver me timbers!!!
Does anyone have any suggestions for songs to download?? I got the new Kazaa and my rating is Supreme Being. I need to use that to my advantage.
I was thinking yesterday that after a few years, I would have just enough money to make a decent down payment on a house here. Picture it, 4br 2ba 2500sf home $150,000!!! Ohmigod!!!
If anyone can help, I have been looking for 2 music videos on the net to no avail...Teddybears STHLM - Rock n' Roll High School, and St. Germain - So Flute. If anyone comes across these vids, let me know!!
So thats it. My work week is 22.5% over. yea me.
I was falling asleep at work today...AGAIN. I have been bedding down at about 7.5 hours before my alarm clock wakes me up, but I lay there forever.
I am soooo tired of my spare room being so messed up that I have to rotate between using the mouse and the keyboard on the same surface.
I have to do laundry before I run out of clothes this week. I will probably do it tomorrow after work. I forgot about it today.
I made a list of Big Ticket items I need to purchase before this house can be called a home...washing machine, guitar...
I need to find a dentist and pay a visit to my Blue Cross assigned doctor in Hanford. Its not that far...just like 20 minutes.
As has been happening a lot recently, my busiest time at work is the 1.5 hours before its time to leave.
Everyone watch Road Rules tonight. My friend Micah, from Boston called me to say that tonights season finale takes place at Cal Poly. Very cool.
Today, more than ever, I felt like a second class citizen at work. I just realized it this instant. I have the oldest computer, the poorest lit cube, no AutoCAD 2000(even if it is Lite). What is up with that?? I guess as long as they keep paying me.
This morning I was all psyched to have been invited to Jack Johnson concert by my then new best friend Jen, only to have my dreams busted into a million pieces after she tells me I can't go anymore cuz I'm not cool enough. :) Just kidding...just a case of miscommunication(hyphenated??)
Surprisingly, my whole house is clean except for the room the computer is in right now. I was looking for something earlier and somehow a grip of papers ended up on the floor. Hm.
I paid all my bills this month. Its good to be making decent money again.(When was I ever making decent money?)
I am going to cancel my cell service soon. The last bill was over $100. Shiver me timbers!!!
Does anyone have any suggestions for songs to download?? I got the new Kazaa and my rating is Supreme Being. I need to use that to my advantage.
I was thinking yesterday that after a few years, I would have just enough money to make a decent down payment on a house here. Picture it, 4br 2ba 2500sf home $150,000!!! Ohmigod!!!
If anyone can help, I have been looking for 2 music videos on the net to no avail...Teddybears STHLM - Rock n' Roll High School, and St. Germain - So Flute. If anyone comes across these vids, let me know!!
So thats it. My work week is 22.5% over. yea me.
Seventy-Second Entry
It has been a little over a week since the last time I wrote something in my blog. Here goes.
A lot has happened since the last time I wrote:
- I have been spending a lot of time with my family here in Tulare. It is fun to hang out with all of them. My cousin made me biscuits and gravy the other night...yumm yumm. I am her fifth "child".
- My mom, aunt and uncle came to visit me this weekend. It was good to see them. We went to Visalia, yea. My mom cleaned my house...thats a major plus.
- My brother, on his way back from San Diego, passed through Tulare yesterday and paid me a visit. He came with his buddy Case. We went to grandmas and my aunts house also. He is actually considering moving to San Diego and has already put in a request for a transfer with his company. Very expense in SD.
- Things have been getting better at work. I feel like I know more about what I am supposed to be doing. I still think the pay sucks.
- The most disappointing thing of this week-point-five stretch of no writing has been a letter I got this weekend. They sent it to my house in San Leandro, and my mom brought it with her this weekend. Alameda County contacted me via mail, and informed me that I have an oral examination (interview) scheduled for this Friday at 2:50 pm. The reason this news is disappointing is because had I received this information about two weeks ago, I probably would have gone to my interview. Mo' Money, Mo' Money, Mo' Money...about $15000 more a year. But, ya know, I don't think I could go back to living at home again...so soon anyway. I like living on my own. Saving up money to buy furniture, having to take out my own trash to the curb, collecting the mail everyday, being independent. It may be costing me an extra $20000 per year over working in Alameda County, but I really like being on my own. And that's all I have to say about that.
Two weekends from now I am going up to the Bay Area and taking another cousin with me. She is going to cook a gourmet Portuguese dinner the night she gets to my parents house. MMMMMMMmmmmmmm....seafood cooked on a clay roof tile. Very cultural.
So yeah. I have only heard back from Jen and Lisa and Mylinh about coming to visit. And just to let you know, November might be a bad time to visit. Just pay attention to the weather forecasts and stuff and you will know. Or I will let you know.
See y'all in two weeks.
It has been a little over a week since the last time I wrote something in my blog. Here goes.
A lot has happened since the last time I wrote:
- I have been spending a lot of time with my family here in Tulare. It is fun to hang out with all of them. My cousin made me biscuits and gravy the other night...yumm yumm. I am her fifth "child".
- My mom, aunt and uncle came to visit me this weekend. It was good to see them. We went to Visalia, yea. My mom cleaned my house...thats a major plus.
- My brother, on his way back from San Diego, passed through Tulare yesterday and paid me a visit. He came with his buddy Case. We went to grandmas and my aunts house also. He is actually considering moving to San Diego and has already put in a request for a transfer with his company. Very expense in SD.
- Things have been getting better at work. I feel like I know more about what I am supposed to be doing. I still think the pay sucks.
- The most disappointing thing of this week-point-five stretch of no writing has been a letter I got this weekend. They sent it to my house in San Leandro, and my mom brought it with her this weekend. Alameda County contacted me via mail, and informed me that I have an oral examination (interview) scheduled for this Friday at 2:50 pm. The reason this news is disappointing is because had I received this information about two weeks ago, I probably would have gone to my interview. Mo' Money, Mo' Money, Mo' Money...about $15000 more a year. But, ya know, I don't think I could go back to living at home again...so soon anyway. I like living on my own. Saving up money to buy furniture, having to take out my own trash to the curb, collecting the mail everyday, being independent. It may be costing me an extra $20000 per year over working in Alameda County, but I really like being on my own. And that's all I have to say about that.
Two weekends from now I am going up to the Bay Area and taking another cousin with me. She is going to cook a gourmet Portuguese dinner the night she gets to my parents house. MMMMMMMmmmmmmm....seafood cooked on a clay roof tile. Very cultural.
So yeah. I have only heard back from Jen and Lisa and Mylinh about coming to visit. And just to let you know, November might be a bad time to visit. Just pay attention to the weather forecasts and stuff and you will know. Or I will let you know.
See y'all in two weeks.
9.28.2002
Seventy-First Entry
I just finished reading friedrice's livejournal, from the sept. 10th entry. Very fascinating trip. She also included a shout-out to my blog. If I could figure out how to put a link on my blog to hers I would...there it is...shout-out to lisa!!!!
For all those 3.5 people who read my blog, I would like to extend an invitation to my home in Tulare, California, the Heart of the Central Valley. It's more like the Armpit of the World, but its almost the same thing. So yeah, come on down.
I watched Run Lola Run on Bravo tonight. I absolutely love that movie, but I did not love it as much tonight because of all the commercials. It is such a fast paced movie, that the commercials slow it down quite a bit.
Oh, I read about Jen's camping trip with work, and her mention of Lex from Survivor got me thinking more about a Survivor weekend. At least 2.5 of you have heard me talk about the possibility of having a Survivor weekend, so if you are interested, let me know. Specifics...sometime early next spring(April, Early May), only lasting one weekend but maybe there is a three day weekend somewhere in there, probably a participation fee of $10-$20(depending on how many participants there are) which will go towards the final reward. The more serious I get about doing this Survivor weekend, the more I start to think about what happens if someone gets hurt or something. Details, details.
I just finished reading friedrice's livejournal, from the sept. 10th entry. Very fascinating trip. She also included a shout-out to my blog. If I could figure out how to put a link on my blog to hers I would...there it is...shout-out to lisa!!!!
For all those 3.5 people who read my blog, I would like to extend an invitation to my home in Tulare, California, the Heart of the Central Valley. It's more like the Armpit of the World, but its almost the same thing. So yeah, come on down.
I watched Run Lola Run on Bravo tonight. I absolutely love that movie, but I did not love it as much tonight because of all the commercials. It is such a fast paced movie, that the commercials slow it down quite a bit.
Oh, I read about Jen's camping trip with work, and her mention of Lex from Survivor got me thinking more about a Survivor weekend. At least 2.5 of you have heard me talk about the possibility of having a Survivor weekend, so if you are interested, let me know. Specifics...sometime early next spring(April, Early May), only lasting one weekend but maybe there is a three day weekend somewhere in there, probably a participation fee of $10-$20(depending on how many participants there are) which will go towards the final reward. The more serious I get about doing this Survivor weekend, the more I start to think about what happens if someone gets hurt or something. Details, details.
9.25.2002
Seventieth Entry
Tear...
Danielle got 2nd place on BB3 and Lisa won. The votes were 9-1, with Danielles one vote being...you guessed it, Jason.
It sucks that the evicted HG's were too emotionally disturbed by what Danielle did to see that by doing those things she played the game the best.
But whatever. I don't think I will ever get so involved in another reality TV show as I have in this one. Although, new episode of Survivor Thailand tomorrow...
I still can't believe that Josh and Amy did not vote for Danielle. There must have been something going on behind the scenes...ahhh...wishful thinking.
I am super tired. I think I am going to sleep.
I DLed the "new" Duncan Sheik song "On a high". It is pretty good. I am DLing the new Santana song feat. Michelle Branch. I heard it on the radio today, and it is pretty good. It is called "Game of Love" for those of you interested.
Yesterday there was a Changing Rooms marathon on BBC America. I love Digital Cable... I am making a tape of all the British TV stuff (primarily Changing Rooms) for a certain friend of mine that knows who she is...:)
I have been thinking about getting up really early one day this week and trekking out to Fresno and getting Krispy Kreme for everyone at work. But I have not been able to get up that early. I would have to be out the door by like 6am.
Oooo, Keeping up Appearances is on.
Tear...
Danielle got 2nd place on BB3 and Lisa won. The votes were 9-1, with Danielles one vote being...you guessed it, Jason.
It sucks that the evicted HG's were too emotionally disturbed by what Danielle did to see that by doing those things she played the game the best.
But whatever. I don't think I will ever get so involved in another reality TV show as I have in this one. Although, new episode of Survivor Thailand tomorrow...
I still can't believe that Josh and Amy did not vote for Danielle. There must have been something going on behind the scenes...ahhh...wishful thinking.
I am super tired. I think I am going to sleep.
I DLed the "new" Duncan Sheik song "On a high". It is pretty good. I am DLing the new Santana song feat. Michelle Branch. I heard it on the radio today, and it is pretty good. It is called "Game of Love" for those of you interested.
Yesterday there was a Changing Rooms marathon on BBC America. I love Digital Cable... I am making a tape of all the British TV stuff (primarily Changing Rooms) for a certain friend of mine that knows who she is...:)
I have been thinking about getting up really early one day this week and trekking out to Fresno and getting Krispy Kreme for everyone at work. But I have not been able to get up that early. I would have to be out the door by like 6am.
Oooo, Keeping up Appearances is on.
9.21.2002
Sixty-Ninth Entry
It has been four weeks since I have been working for Tulare County. In these past four weeks, I have learned a lot about working for the government. It is a very slow process with many checks and balances to keep things from going wrong. As a result, I find myself bored half the time. I need to think up ways to keep myself entertained for 9 hours a day (M-Th) and 4 hours on Friday. The projects I am working on are not due until six weeks from now, but they are already almost done. I inherited the projects from an Engineer that recently left on suspicious terms with the bosses...
But enough about my boring work.
Today I got Cable...Digital Cable no less, and am enjoying it. I also got a Cable Modem which is why I am able to write to the 3.5 people that read my blog on a regular basis. As a result of this injection of fresh technology into my life, I feel like I am settling into my life in Tulare very well. I am all set up in my living arrangement here.
It was interesting at first though...
I had to live at my grandparents house for two weeks before I could move into the place that I now call home. At first it was kind of awkward just because they are my grandparents, but I had a nice bed to sleep in and there was never any shortage of food. It was nice to live with them, watch them fight, listen to their stories and just hang out with them. I also got to watch a lot of Portuguese TV on RTPi which they get via satelite. It was interesting. When I needed a break or something from my grandparents house, I would go over to my Aunts house which is across town. We would just hang out and smoke. It was very cool.
I still go every once in a while and visit them. yahafta.
So...guess who is spending the night at my house tonight?? Louis! He left really late from the Bay and caught a ton of traffic on the way to Bakersfield to attend a conference so he couldn't make the 8pm deadline. So he stopped by and we ate Sonic and hung out.
Mylinh called me tonight. (censored) Anyway, just venting.
So yeah...to recap...
Job boring check
Cable Modem check
Digital Cable check
Tulare family check
Louis staying check
Upsetting phone call double check
See some of you this weekend. I will get to SL sometime between 8 and 9. Jen, if you read this, please, please, please tape BB3 for me and we will watch it this weekend!!! I need to know.
It has been four weeks since I have been working for Tulare County. In these past four weeks, I have learned a lot about working for the government. It is a very slow process with many checks and balances to keep things from going wrong. As a result, I find myself bored half the time. I need to think up ways to keep myself entertained for 9 hours a day (M-Th) and 4 hours on Friday. The projects I am working on are not due until six weeks from now, but they are already almost done. I inherited the projects from an Engineer that recently left on suspicious terms with the bosses...
But enough about my boring work.
Today I got Cable...Digital Cable no less, and am enjoying it. I also got a Cable Modem which is why I am able to write to the 3.5 people that read my blog on a regular basis. As a result of this injection of fresh technology into my life, I feel like I am settling into my life in Tulare very well. I am all set up in my living arrangement here.
It was interesting at first though...
I had to live at my grandparents house for two weeks before I could move into the place that I now call home. At first it was kind of awkward just because they are my grandparents, but I had a nice bed to sleep in and there was never any shortage of food. It was nice to live with them, watch them fight, listen to their stories and just hang out with them. I also got to watch a lot of Portuguese TV on RTPi which they get via satelite. It was interesting. When I needed a break or something from my grandparents house, I would go over to my Aunts house which is across town. We would just hang out and smoke. It was very cool.
I still go every once in a while and visit them. yahafta.
So...guess who is spending the night at my house tonight?? Louis! He left really late from the Bay and caught a ton of traffic on the way to Bakersfield to attend a conference so he couldn't make the 8pm deadline. So he stopped by and we ate Sonic and hung out.
Mylinh called me tonight. (censored) Anyway, just venting.
So yeah...to recap...
Job boring check
Cable Modem check
Digital Cable check
Tulare family check
Louis staying check
Upsetting phone call double check
See some of you this weekend. I will get to SL sometime between 8 and 9. Jen, if you read this, please, please, please tape BB3 for me and we will watch it this weekend!!! I need to know.
8.24.2002
Sixty-Eighth Entry
Today is my last day as a resident of San Leandro. In about an hour I begin my journey into the real world. Monday I start my new position at Tulare County as an Engineer I. I will be on my own with a rent to pay, bills to pay and air conditioning.
Its kinda sad to leave my birthplace (San Leandro) knowing that I might never return, other than to visit. All my friends and most of my family is here; I will miss them a lot. But I knew that this would happen eventually and am now rather looking forward to it. I get to experience all there is to experience as a "professional".
Hopefully new friends will be made, perhaps a marriage(or two), and I won't be alone. I have quite a lot of family in Tulare, so it won't be so bad, but they can only do so much with you.
Once I get settled in, in my new residence and job, I can return to the things I do a lot here in San Leandro...watching tons of TV, goofin' off on the net and putting hexes on Jason from BB3(not really, but I should). Soon Tulare will become home to me and it will be great.
To everyone who read this, I will miss you a lot, and come visit me!!
Bye
Today is my last day as a resident of San Leandro. In about an hour I begin my journey into the real world. Monday I start my new position at Tulare County as an Engineer I. I will be on my own with a rent to pay, bills to pay and air conditioning.
Its kinda sad to leave my birthplace (San Leandro) knowing that I might never return, other than to visit. All my friends and most of my family is here; I will miss them a lot. But I knew that this would happen eventually and am now rather looking forward to it. I get to experience all there is to experience as a "professional".
Hopefully new friends will be made, perhaps a marriage(or two), and I won't be alone. I have quite a lot of family in Tulare, so it won't be so bad, but they can only do so much with you.
Once I get settled in, in my new residence and job, I can return to the things I do a lot here in San Leandro...watching tons of TV, goofin' off on the net and putting hexes on Jason from BB3(not really, but I should). Soon Tulare will become home to me and it will be great.
To everyone who read this, I will miss you a lot, and come visit me!!
Bye
8.17.2002
Sixty-Seventh Entry
A whoooooooole lot has happened since I last wrote.
-I got a job.
-I have driven close to 2000 miles.
-I have developed a new addiction.
-I got a job.
I found out on Monday, August 5th while Louis and Lamar were at my house using my brothers computer to work on Louis' campaign statement. I got a job working with the County of Tulare as an Engineer 1. I waited a while before I told anyone because I wanted to do it all at the same time. I wanted everyone to go with me to Margies Diner in Salinas, but only 4 people could go. Thats alright, we went anyway, and I told everyone else at other times during the day. I am extremely happy that I have finally got a job and that I now get to live near my family in Tulare. I am not exactly sure as to what I will be doing, but I know that it is engineering related. My first day is August 26th, but it will only be an orientation day. I get to watch a lot of videos and fill out paperwork about them. They probably have to do with work safety and sexual harassment type things.
-I have driven close to 2000 miles.
As a result of my new job, I have been to Tulare 3 times in just 2 weeks. Once for my second interview, once to fill out the paperwork like W4 and stuff as well as take a county physical, and once to check out some places to live. Compounded with driving Firmino to and from practice in Livermore for a whole week and various outings, that adds up to about 2000 miles. And there are so many more miles to be driven by me(moving, visiting, etc.) By the way, I liked the apartment I saw and will be moving into it in the middle of September.
-I have developed a new addiction.
And this addiction is to Big Brother 3 Updates on the web. www.bb3updates.com is the website that I frequent about a dozen times a day to find out the latest from the people who have the live feeds over the internet. The TV show has just become the icing on the cake as far as I'm concerned. But, for the few weeks that I am not going to have internet, when I am at my grandmothers house, I am going to suffer severe withdrawals. Oh well, I guess I will have to find out about BB happenings the old fashioned way by watching the show.
I am severely rooting for a Danielle, Jason and Amy/Lisa final three. I fear that one of these will be replaced with Gerry. Everyone thinks they can beat Gerry in the final two.
I am very afraid to find out who Amy will nominate tomorrow. She is leaning toward Jason and Chiara. Marcellas does not want to look like he is trying to change Amy's decision which makes me think that he would be OK with Jason leaving. What happened to the alliance??? If it wasn't for Roddy pulling Amy's strings, Jason would have been no where near the chopping block. If Jason is nominated, Roddy will waste no time painting him out to be a bad guy like he did with his 'fake' attack on Josh. Roddy wanted to ensure that Josh get evicted so he yelled at him and before long the scene was like a Two-Minute Hate from 1984 with Marcellas yelling at him too. Roddy needs to go now, I blame it all on him.
And what is it with this Lisa flirting with Roddy thing? Is she trying to play him, or is he charming her into his dark side?? Too much going on. Its like slowing down to gawk at a car accident on the road.
A whoooooooole lot has happened since I last wrote.
-I got a job.
-I have driven close to 2000 miles.
-I have developed a new addiction.
-I got a job.
I found out on Monday, August 5th while Louis and Lamar were at my house using my brothers computer to work on Louis' campaign statement. I got a job working with the County of Tulare as an Engineer 1. I waited a while before I told anyone because I wanted to do it all at the same time. I wanted everyone to go with me to Margies Diner in Salinas, but only 4 people could go. Thats alright, we went anyway, and I told everyone else at other times during the day. I am extremely happy that I have finally got a job and that I now get to live near my family in Tulare. I am not exactly sure as to what I will be doing, but I know that it is engineering related. My first day is August 26th, but it will only be an orientation day. I get to watch a lot of videos and fill out paperwork about them. They probably have to do with work safety and sexual harassment type things.
-I have driven close to 2000 miles.
As a result of my new job, I have been to Tulare 3 times in just 2 weeks. Once for my second interview, once to fill out the paperwork like W4 and stuff as well as take a county physical, and once to check out some places to live. Compounded with driving Firmino to and from practice in Livermore for a whole week and various outings, that adds up to about 2000 miles. And there are so many more miles to be driven by me(moving, visiting, etc.) By the way, I liked the apartment I saw and will be moving into it in the middle of September.
-I have developed a new addiction.
And this addiction is to Big Brother 3 Updates on the web. www.bb3updates.com is the website that I frequent about a dozen times a day to find out the latest from the people who have the live feeds over the internet. The TV show has just become the icing on the cake as far as I'm concerned. But, for the few weeks that I am not going to have internet, when I am at my grandmothers house, I am going to suffer severe withdrawals. Oh well, I guess I will have to find out about BB happenings the old fashioned way by watching the show.
I am severely rooting for a Danielle, Jason and Amy/Lisa final three. I fear that one of these will be replaced with Gerry. Everyone thinks they can beat Gerry in the final two.
I am very afraid to find out who Amy will nominate tomorrow. She is leaning toward Jason and Chiara. Marcellas does not want to look like he is trying to change Amy's decision which makes me think that he would be OK with Jason leaving. What happened to the alliance??? If it wasn't for Roddy pulling Amy's strings, Jason would have been no where near the chopping block. If Jason is nominated, Roddy will waste no time painting him out to be a bad guy like he did with his 'fake' attack on Josh. Roddy wanted to ensure that Josh get evicted so he yelled at him and before long the scene was like a Two-Minute Hate from 1984 with Marcellas yelling at him too. Roddy needs to go now, I blame it all on him.
And what is it with this Lisa flirting with Roddy thing? Is she trying to play him, or is he charming her into his dark side?? Too much going on. Its like slowing down to gawk at a car accident on the road.
8.01.2002
Sixty-Sixth Entry
In my last entry, I set quite a few lofty goals. Two, in particular, I have not been successful at...the quit smoking, and the cold calling. I have been more conscious of how much I smoke recently, and as a result am starting to cut down. The whole cold calling thing was just too scary to handle, but I have been sending in applications to potential employers everyday.
So...Lisa, Amy, Mylinh and sometimes Carolyn. I am happy that my readership has slowly grown from 1 to 3.5. Maybe I should have a dancing bear in the corner of this page to attract readers. Maybe I'll throw a virtual BBQ so I can invite more people to read.
2 more days and Mylinh will be back to the States. I get to pick her up at the lovely SFO airport. I have been waiting for this day forever!!
Amy told me on our Wednesday walk that it took her 6 months to find a job. I guess I shouldn't expect to get a job right away, but it would be nice to get one, or at least several very promising leads before the end of August. We'll see.
If anyone is ever home at 3pm on a weekday, you must watch Good Day Live on CBS 5. It is the most hilarious daytime show since, since,... I don't know when. Dorothy, Steve, and Jillian are the best daytime team ever. It is a laugh a second with these guys. It is a testament to how easygoing and jaded LA really is. I saw the show every once in a while when I lived in SLO, since on cable we got all the LA stations, but that was before they were syndicated. I love it!!!
Big Brother 3 tonight was no big shocker as far as the eviction was concerned. I won't say I was happy to see Amy go, but I think she did deserve it more than Marcellas. But I was surprised to see how much Eric wanted to get HOH. I am willing to bet millions that he would've put up Danielle and Jason for eviction. But how stupid was he to think that Amy, Lori and Tonya totalled 200 some-odd inches in height?? That would have made each of them about 7 feet tall!! What a dumb ass. I think Gerry is in a good position here...he has evaded another chance at being evicted. I feel pretty confident that he will nominate Lisa and Danielle for eviction to get in good with Roddy, Josh and Marcellas. Eric won't be too happy, but he'll get over it...his one brain cell can only handle a few thoughts at a time. And of course Jason will be heartbroken that Danielle is nominated, but unless he wins the power of veto, all he can do is pray...more than he has been.
Tomorrow, I am going to try to finish shooting the movie at my cousins house. I think tomorrow I am going to die...in the movie.
Any ideas on what to do tomorrow night??
In my last entry, I set quite a few lofty goals. Two, in particular, I have not been successful at...the quit smoking, and the cold calling. I have been more conscious of how much I smoke recently, and as a result am starting to cut down. The whole cold calling thing was just too scary to handle, but I have been sending in applications to potential employers everyday.
So...Lisa, Amy, Mylinh and sometimes Carolyn. I am happy that my readership has slowly grown from 1 to 3.5. Maybe I should have a dancing bear in the corner of this page to attract readers. Maybe I'll throw a virtual BBQ so I can invite more people to read.
2 more days and Mylinh will be back to the States. I get to pick her up at the lovely SFO airport. I have been waiting for this day forever!!
Amy told me on our Wednesday walk that it took her 6 months to find a job. I guess I shouldn't expect to get a job right away, but it would be nice to get one, or at least several very promising leads before the end of August. We'll see.
If anyone is ever home at 3pm on a weekday, you must watch Good Day Live on CBS 5. It is the most hilarious daytime show since, since,... I don't know when. Dorothy, Steve, and Jillian are the best daytime team ever. It is a laugh a second with these guys. It is a testament to how easygoing and jaded LA really is. I saw the show every once in a while when I lived in SLO, since on cable we got all the LA stations, but that was before they were syndicated. I love it!!!
Big Brother 3 tonight was no big shocker as far as the eviction was concerned. I won't say I was happy to see Amy go, but I think she did deserve it more than Marcellas. But I was surprised to see how much Eric wanted to get HOH. I am willing to bet millions that he would've put up Danielle and Jason for eviction. But how stupid was he to think that Amy, Lori and Tonya totalled 200 some-odd inches in height?? That would have made each of them about 7 feet tall!! What a dumb ass. I think Gerry is in a good position here...he has evaded another chance at being evicted. I feel pretty confident that he will nominate Lisa and Danielle for eviction to get in good with Roddy, Josh and Marcellas. Eric won't be too happy, but he'll get over it...his one brain cell can only handle a few thoughts at a time. And of course Jason will be heartbroken that Danielle is nominated, but unless he wins the power of veto, all he can do is pray...more than he has been.
Tomorrow, I am going to try to finish shooting the movie at my cousins house. I think tomorrow I am going to die...in the movie.
Any ideas on what to do tomorrow night??
7.26.2002
Sixty-Fifth Entry
I can't sleep. The last coupla nights I have had a hard time sleeping. I am trying to get to bed earlier than I have been, but it isn't working too successfully. As a result, I find myself thinking about stuff which I will vent to my 3.5 readers.
1. I have never been more serious about my health than I am right now. I have thought of the things I need to do to become a healthier person. As of tomorrow, I am going to quit smoking. Not for a few days, not for a few weeks, forever. Quitting smoking will be tough, but not as tough as my next goal. I am going to lose 50lbs by Christmas. That is about 10lbs per month. That goal does not sound that hard, but coupled with the extra eating from quitting smoking, it will be quite a challenge. I am going to stop eating at all fast food joints(save monthly In n' Out) and greasy spoon restaurants(including Prings, Denny's and Carrows) unless I just get a beverage. I will exercise more than just 3 times a week. This will include a daily routine of sit-ups, push-ups, more walking and running and whatever else I can do like use my bros weights. By the end of the year, I will run an 8 minute mile. 8 mins ain't that great, but its close to half the time I can do it in now. Somebody print this out.
2. I need to get a job. I need a job more than I need air to breathe. My money is running short and my parents won't like me asking them for money. I tried today to start my "cold calling", but I got too nervous and didn't do it. I decided that I need a start date, and an end date. I will start cold calling next Monday, the 29th of July and end on Friday, the 9th of August. That gives me two weeks which is ample time to do the calling, and send out all the necessaries that go along with the calling. I need to buy new interview clothes. They always say, you need to spend money to make money. Somebody print this out.
There, I've said it. That is pretty much all I have been thinking about, save for a few thoughts that should stay in the bedroom...hehe.
8 days n' counting...
I can't sleep. The last coupla nights I have had a hard time sleeping. I am trying to get to bed earlier than I have been, but it isn't working too successfully. As a result, I find myself thinking about stuff which I will vent to my 3.5 readers.
1. I have never been more serious about my health than I am right now. I have thought of the things I need to do to become a healthier person. As of tomorrow, I am going to quit smoking. Not for a few days, not for a few weeks, forever. Quitting smoking will be tough, but not as tough as my next goal. I am going to lose 50lbs by Christmas. That is about 10lbs per month. That goal does not sound that hard, but coupled with the extra eating from quitting smoking, it will be quite a challenge. I am going to stop eating at all fast food joints(save monthly In n' Out) and greasy spoon restaurants(including Prings, Denny's and Carrows) unless I just get a beverage. I will exercise more than just 3 times a week. This will include a daily routine of sit-ups, push-ups, more walking and running and whatever else I can do like use my bros weights. By the end of the year, I will run an 8 minute mile. 8 mins ain't that great, but its close to half the time I can do it in now. Somebody print this out.
2. I need to get a job. I need a job more than I need air to breathe. My money is running short and my parents won't like me asking them for money. I tried today to start my "cold calling", but I got too nervous and didn't do it. I decided that I need a start date, and an end date. I will start cold calling next Monday, the 29th of July and end on Friday, the 9th of August. That gives me two weeks which is ample time to do the calling, and send out all the necessaries that go along with the calling. I need to buy new interview clothes. They always say, you need to spend money to make money. Somebody print this out.
There, I've said it. That is pretty much all I have been thinking about, save for a few thoughts that should stay in the bedroom...hehe.
8 days n' counting...
7.24.2002
Sixty-Third Entry
Bullfight on Monday was uber-cool. I had a lot of fun and I think 50% of the asians there did also. They only had one good guy on horseback, the other horse guy was an apprentice who sucked.
I sent in two applications today for employment. That makes a total of 4 sent out this week. Katie gave me the idea to print out internet yellow page listings for all the firms in the area. And that leaves me with three choices:
1. Faxing everyone my resume and cover letter
2. Sending everyone my resume and cover letter
3. "Cold calling" everyone first to see if they will even look at my resume and then sending it to them via either fax or mail.
I am leaning towards number 3. Number 1 is just way too impersonal, if they aren't expecting it they will treat it as a fax ad and throw it out, it costs like $1 per sheet to fax at Kinkos, but it is quick, quick, quick. Number 2 is more personal than number one, but if they aren't expecting it...garbage, I will spend 37-60 cents per set, but it too is a quick way of doing it. By using number 3, I can gauge interest, I can find out who they are looking for(if anyone), save money on postage and faxing by only sending a set to those who want it. On the other hand it will take longer, I will have to pay for the phone calls, and I will have to learn a little something about their company so I don't sound stupid on the phone.
I think I will do number 3. It is time-consuming, but very cost-effective. Wish me luck!!
Bullfight on Monday was uber-cool. I had a lot of fun and I think 50% of the asians there did also. They only had one good guy on horseback, the other horse guy was an apprentice who sucked.
I sent in two applications today for employment. That makes a total of 4 sent out this week. Katie gave me the idea to print out internet yellow page listings for all the firms in the area. And that leaves me with three choices:
1. Faxing everyone my resume and cover letter
2. Sending everyone my resume and cover letter
3. "Cold calling" everyone first to see if they will even look at my resume and then sending it to them via either fax or mail.
I am leaning towards number 3. Number 1 is just way too impersonal, if they aren't expecting it they will treat it as a fax ad and throw it out, it costs like $1 per sheet to fax at Kinkos, but it is quick, quick, quick. Number 2 is more personal than number one, but if they aren't expecting it...garbage, I will spend 37-60 cents per set, but it too is a quick way of doing it. By using number 3, I can gauge interest, I can find out who they are looking for(if anyone), save money on postage and faxing by only sending a set to those who want it. On the other hand it will take longer, I will have to pay for the phone calls, and I will have to learn a little something about their company so I don't sound stupid on the phone.
I think I will do number 3. It is time-consuming, but very cost-effective. Wish me luck!!
7.18.2002
Sixty-Second Entry
Well, I don't really know what to write, but I feel like I should. My readership is up to three, thanks Amy.
I have been on a somewhat successful health kick in recent days. I have been counting calories and eating less and trying to exercise more. I don't feel tired all the time due to a possible calorie shortage; that tells me I've been eating too much. I am trying to better commit myself to walking 3 times a week with Amy and am starting a regiment of situps and pushups. That should help out too.
Things I need to work on...going to sleep earlier, and getting up earlier. I am down to waking up at 9:15am. Which is better than the average noon time reveille that I have become accustomed to....I also need to stop eating a midnight snack. Last night was a small bowl of cereal.
I guess the deal with weight loss is that it isn't instantaneous. I am the type of person who likes things that are instantaneous, probably due to my proximity to all the things that I need and provide instant gratification like: food, music, my computer and porn(j/k...or am I).
Once I work out enough, and eat right enough, I will look better and feel a lot better. Until then, I will just have to work at it and know that the end result will be satisfying.
Well, I don't really know what to write, but I feel like I should. My readership is up to three, thanks Amy.
I have been on a somewhat successful health kick in recent days. I have been counting calories and eating less and trying to exercise more. I don't feel tired all the time due to a possible calorie shortage; that tells me I've been eating too much. I am trying to better commit myself to walking 3 times a week with Amy and am starting a regiment of situps and pushups. That should help out too.
Things I need to work on...going to sleep earlier, and getting up earlier. I am down to waking up at 9:15am. Which is better than the average noon time reveille that I have become accustomed to....I also need to stop eating a midnight snack. Last night was a small bowl of cereal.
I guess the deal with weight loss is that it isn't instantaneous. I am the type of person who likes things that are instantaneous, probably due to my proximity to all the things that I need and provide instant gratification like: food, music, my computer and porn(j/k...or am I).
Once I work out enough, and eat right enough, I will look better and feel a lot better. Until then, I will just have to work at it and know that the end result will be satisfying.
7.15.2002
Sixty-First Entry
Mamma Mia!!
It was the funniest, greatest, most excellent performance I have ever seen on any stage! It was the ultimate best!! I feel lucky that I was able to be a part of such a wonderful experience! The seats were great, and the crowd was really getting into it. Someone sitting to my left was even singing along! She must have been a die hard fan!!
I got all spiffed up for the show. It was cool to get all dressed up for an evening theatre performance in The City. I felt rich or something...
Mamma Mia!!
It was the funniest, greatest, most excellent performance I have ever seen on any stage! It was the ultimate best!! I feel lucky that I was able to be a part of such a wonderful experience! The seats were great, and the crowd was really getting into it. Someone sitting to my left was even singing along! She must have been a die hard fan!!
I got all spiffed up for the show. It was cool to get all dressed up for an evening theatre performance in The City. I felt rich or something...
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