6.25.2005

Two Hundred Eighty-Seventh Entry

Big shout out to Dayni. I just got your SUD. Meet again soon we shall.

I went on a media binge yesterday. And it felt good...

Purchased:
Nikka Costa's new CD "can'tneverdidnothin'". Some very catchy tunes on it, just like the first album, but unlike the first, fewer depressing songs. Excellent cover of a Tina Turner song I've never heard of, "Funkier than a Mosquito's Tweeter". Not quite as good as her first CD, but if she tours I'll be there.

Gorillaz' new CD "Demon Days". Not a bad CD. Best track is "Feel Good, Inc.". That's the one getting all the radio play. I think I like it the most because it is the most reminiscent of their first CD. This album has less of a hiphop feel. More rock. Again not as good as the furst, but if they tour, I'll be there.

Coldplay's new CD "X & Y". Haven't opened it yet. I have heard nothing but good things about this album. Supposedly it is a huge album full of hugely epic songs. I guess I'm just waiting for the right moment to crack that one open.

Jamiroquai's new CD "Dynamite". Ordered it on amazon.com. Not much I can say about that one except that the first single is amazing and the video is just as amazing. It's an import and it is released on June 29th, so I won't get it til after that. The American release isn't til August and I just can't wait that long.

Deltron 3030 CD "Deltron 3030". Ordered it on amazon.com. They guested a lot on the previous Gorillaz album. My brother has it on vinyl and it's a truly awesome musical journey.

In Living Color Second Season DVD. I've seen the first 2 out of 4 disks. Hilarious, hilarious, hilarious. I had forgotten all about "Open handed slap to the mouth". Love it. We must have an In Living Color party sometime. Too funny it is. I'm still waiting to see J. Lo. before she was famous.

I haven't seen Episode III yet, but I am dying too. Earlier this week at work 1 we had a discussion about Yoda-speak. He sounds fancy, without being fancy. Talk amongst yourselves.

6.23.2005

Two Hundred Eighty-Sixth Entry

It's hot.

Tonight is my first night off in over a week. I plan on spending it spending money. I seem to have a little extra since I haven't had any time to spend it in over a week. I see many CD's in my future (Coldplay, Gorillaz, Jamiroquai(online)as well as a record player. Speaking of which, if anyone knows of anyone trying to get rid of a record player, let me know! I have a general idea of the kind I want. But I'm open to anything. Just not those suitcase ones. I figure I'll hit up some garage sales on fri and sat and see whats out there. I have a great Vivaldi's Four Seasons record that I haven't listened to in ages!

I have never looked forward to a night off like this in forever. It's gonna be great.

6.04.2005

Two Hundred Eighty-Fifth Entry

Just when you think you've got it all figured out.....WHAMMO!!

5.31.2005

Two Hundred Eighty Fourth Entry

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know will be alright
Perhaps it's just imagination

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Alone between the sheets
Only brings exasperation
It's time to walk the streets
Smell the desperation

At least there's pretty lights
And though there's little variation
It nullifies the night from overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away
Come back another day

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know will be alright
It's just overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away


Overkill by Lazlo Bane

5.15.2005

Two Hundred Eighty-Third Entry

This weekend was the wedding that the whole family was waiting for. It was a blast!

Apart from a little mini-drama, the wedding was a great time for all.

I picked up Jen at her house. I must say, she was looking very pretty. We had to stop at Target because in my rush to shower, shave, brush teeth, wrap presents and wake up my brother, I forgot to clip my nails and put on deodorant. Jen was hungry, so we ate at the Taco Bell Express in Target. TB was anything but express, so I clipped my nails and put on deodorant as we waited. Jen kindly averted her eyes while the deodorant was going on.

The drive to Gilroy was smooth, almost no traffic. We got there just at 2pm, but the ceremony hadn't started yet. I said my obligatory hellos, and introduced Jen around. The ceremony was just absolutely beautiful. The sun was out, it was warm...just perfect weather for an outdoor wedding. The ceremony was actually held in a bit of a clearing in the middle of a bunch of redwood trees. Brock was wearing a nice suit, with a stupid hat. I wish he'd take off the hat, but he didn't til the reception. Marcia came down the aisle in her "Lord of the Rings" inspired dress. She looked sooooo nice. She deserved that day.

In between the ceremony and the reception, Jen and I ventured into Gilroy and bought some munchies at Nob Hill. Very nice grocery store. Almost fancy. Then we stopped at Starbucks. Mmmmmm....

The reception was held at Bonfante Gardens Family Theme Park. Very nice place. The DJ was a DJ and he played a whole ton of different kinds of music. The food was OK. The rice was a little undercooked and the salmon had too many capers for my taste. But the steak was really good as were the green beans and rolls. The free beer, wine and champagne was really really good. The money dance was unorganized, which made it fun. My people, as Jen pointed out, don't understand the concept of the money dance and went out onto the dance floor to dance.

The Best Man gave the worst speech in the history of Best Man-dom. Even worse than mine. His was totally unrehearsed and completely disorganized. He even forgot to toast the bride and groom. Woops. He was a maniac on the dance floor too. He went nuts, as did Brock and the other groomsmen. The bouquet and garter toss were pretty basic.

One surprise in the evening was the singing of a song my uncle wrote for Marcia. She had no idea and started crying. As with most other Portuguese folk music, it was very touching, almost depressing. But it was a big highlight of the evening. We all came together as a family to celebrate Marcia and Brock's union in song.

Everybody danced, even the old folks (i.e. my parents, aunts and uncles, Fred). My dad did some sort of Elaine-esque dance thing a couple of times and we all just laughed. It was hilarious. At least he has rhythm.

The party wound down around 10:30 and we went home. Jen and I thought it a good idea to stop at In 'n Out to grab a bite since it had been over 6 hours since last eating. Well.... major police action at the In 'n Out. Leavesley Street was blocked off just east of the In 'n Out and there were 2 or 3 cop cars in the p-lot. One of the guys they had there was given a sobriety test. Very interesting. The most important thing was that In 'n Out was still open. Mmmm....number 1....mmmmm.

Well, Jen and I discussed the wedding, the people at the wedding and some family drama that was thankfully left out of the wedding. Then I took her home. After that, I was practically falling asleep on the drive home. I didn't get into bed until about 1 am. geez.

Lasting impressions and thoughts...Marcia and Brock stayed at the wedding and partied with everyone until the very end. I always thought the bride and groom were supposed to leave early for the honeymoon and stuff. At first I thought it was weird, but now I think it added to the party atmosphere. And it felt more like a party than the function that it was. Everyone left their baggage at home and came to have a good time. Very fun.

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Money's gonna get tight soon:

Two weeks ago, Bullet was assaulted by an unknown driver in either the p-lot at Albertson's or the county. No note was left or anything. The quote I got this morning from my uncle to fix it was $1500. Jesus! I was hoping I wouldn't have to contact the insurance, but now it looks like I will have to.

I have to go to the doctor sometime this week. My right knee is killing me. I can't walk that good. I'm limping around more than usual. For the last couple of months it had been bothering me, but last night at the wedding all the dancing and jumping around was just too much for my poor knee to handle. Of course, I am thinking of the worst case scenario...my knee is broken and I'll have to have surgery on it. Or it's broken, I'll have to wear a cast and stay off of it for 6 weeks. I would have to quit Albertsons. I think I might go to the emergency room tomorrow if it feels the same.

Sheesh. I need a vacate.

5.12.2005

Two Hundred Eighty-Second Entry

4161 - Onion, Texas
4022 - Grapes, Green Seedless
4087 - Tomatoes, Roma
4798 - Tomatoes, Small Hydroponic
4799 - Tomatoes, Large Hydroponic
4664 - Tomatoes, Vine
4562 - Carrots, Loose
4079 - Cauliflower
4499 - Grapes, Red Seedless
4034 - Honeydew
4416 - Pears, Bartlett
3056 - Apples, Cameo

My God!
Two Hundred Eighty-First Entry

I was so excited, I almost blogged last night!

Jamiroquai is coming out with a new album!! I heard the new single "Feels Just Like It Should" and it sounds very good! No US tour dates announced, and I won't hold my breath. They were never that popular here. But, who knows, there may be a quick trip to Europe in the near future to catch a show. Anyone interested? End of summer, beginning of fall? A whirlwind 3 or 4 day trip to watch a great show?

And lord knows I'll need it by then.

Work is getting me down this week. I am ready to move on. So ready. City of Tulare may be hiring...

If I don't get out of here soon, I will be completely put off by engineering. I haven't done any "engineering" in about six months. Pushing paper and research is all I have been doing. Maybe a career as a grocery clerk would suit me better.

Going back to school popped into my head again this week. So did being a teacher. So did moving overseas...Europe, Australia, Japan, South Africa, Brazil. So did designing my own house...from scratch.

4060 - Broccoli, Bunch
4011 - Bananas
94011 - Bananas, Organic
4065 - Peppers, Green Bell
4088 - Peppers, Red Bell
4089 - Radishes
4082 - Onion, Red
4068 - Onion, Green
4080 - Asparagus
6007 - Ice, 7#
6020 - Ice, 20#
4050 - Cantaloupe
4032 - Watermelon, Seedless
4432 - Pineapple
4889 - Cilantro
4784 - Squash, Yellow Crookneck
4062 - Cucumber, Green
4067 - Zucchini
6033 - Juice/Tea, Single Bottle
7514024514 - Crystal Geyser Water, 24 pk
4030 - Kiwi
4129 - Apples, Granny Smith
96800 - Stamps, 20
4116300xxx - Anything Floral

Sad that this is actually taking up space in my brain.

I've invented a check clearing dance. It's to the noise of the check machine as it endorses the check. It will sweep the nation. I only do it when Caryn is bagging for me cuz she joins in. That way I don't look like an idiot...by myself.

5.06.2005

Two Hundred Eightieth Entry

It's official. I have no life.

Camping last weekend was really a lot of fun.

I am so tired right now.

Last Sunday was my first day as a checker. I got absolutely no training at all. Pretty much just a "good luck" and a shove into the checkstand. Very scary. But as the days pass, I am slowly asking fewer and fewer questions and getting more comfortable in my new role.

That is all, I have to get ready for work.

4.19.2005

Two Hundred Seventy-Ninth Entry

It's been a great while.

My exam was last weekend. It sucked really hard. Chances I passed:

Civil Engineering Principles (8-hour): 50%
Seismic Principles: 25%
Engineering Surveying Principles: 75%
Professional Ethics Exam (Take-Home): not yet completed, but 100%(come on, it's take home)

When I finally get the results(mid-July), it will give me the cut score and my score for the exams I failed. I have been contemplating taking a Seismic review course for the October exam, but it's all the way in Sacramento, and it costs some crazy amount of money like $400 dollars. It might be worth it. We'll see. As for the 8-hour, I have a gut feeling that when I get the score, I will have missed passing by only two or three points. And I can cover that by studying things that I passed up studying this time around. And if I failed the Surveying exam, then I might just give the whole thing up and become a monk. Or lead guitarist in my new band.

That would be a cool name for a band, "The Failures". It kind of prepares us for not making it in the biz.

Saturday after my exam, I went to Jen's house and hung out. It was nice just hanging out. Playing with the kitty. Eating "fig" bars and Thai food. After that was Karaoke! Love karaoke. I think next time we should go to the one in Oakland. Hayward was a bad call on my part. Stupid not working equipment.

Sunday I spent the afternoon with Louis. It had been a while since we did anything. Very fun. Food, talking, talking about people. That's always fun. And I got to ride around in his brand new car! Rouja fits in the trunk of his new Camry. It even has a latch on the inside so in case you get kidnapped, you can get out.

Then I drove home. On the drive, Dayni called. I was glad she called. She comes home in less than a month. Much marshmallow roasting will be had by all.

Yesterday, I passed by Albertsons to find out who got fired. Well, it was someone from Night Crew. And through some personnel changes as a result, there is now an opening for checker. But wait, there's more. One of the older checkers left last week on disability, making that two, count 'em two, checker positions up for grabs. Yours truly put in a bid form yesterday, and I believe I am either number 2 or 3 in seniority for those positions.

This morning I had a meeting in Fresno with some Caltrans folks about a project they are doing in Cutler. I said maybe two words in the whole meeting. But it was interesting.

Tomorrow I have a meeting here at the office with the Assistant Director and an Associate Director about our county's bike plan. Thrilling.

Have a great week everyone!

3.21.2005

Two Hundred Seventy-Eighth Entry

Here's another song I really like...gasp!...it's country!!

Coming to a Karaoke Box near you....

Well, I walk into the room, passing out hundred dollar bills
And it kills and it thrills, like the horns on my Silverado grill
And I buy the bar a double-round of Crown
And everybody's gettin' down
And this town ain't never gonna be the same

Cause I saddle up my horse and I ride into the city
I make a lot of noise, cause the girls they are so pretty
Riding up and down Broadway on my ol' stud Leroy
And the girls say
'Save a horse, ride a cowboy'
Everybody says, 'save a horse, ride a cowboy'

Well, I don't give a dang about nothing
And I'm singing and bling-blinging
While the girls are drinking long-necks down
And I wouldn't trade ol' Leroy or my Chevrolet
For your Escalade, or your freak parade
I'm the only John Wayne left in this town

Cause I saddle up my horse and I ride into the city
I make a lot of noise, cause the girls they are so pretty
Riding up and down Broadway on my ol' stud Leroy
And the girls say
'Save a horse, ride a cowboy'
Everybody says, 'save a horse, ride a cowboy'

Well I'm a thoroughbred, that's what she said, in the back of my truckbed
As I was getting buzzed on suds, out on some back country road
We were flying high, fine as wine, having ourselves a Big & Rich time
And I was going just about as far as she'd let me go
But her evaluation of my cowboy reputation, had me begging for salvation all night long
So I took her out giggin' frogs, introduced her to my ol' bird dog
Sang her every Willie Nelson song I could think of
And we made love

And I saddle up my horse and I ride into the city
I make a lot of noise cause the girls they are so pretty
Riding up and down Broadway on my ol' stud Leroy
And the girls say
'Save a horse, ride a cowboy'
Everybody says, 'save a horse, ride a cowboy'
What, what, 'save a horse, ride a cowboy'
Everybody says, 'save a horse, ride a cowboy'

Save a Horse (Ride a Cowboy) by Big & Rich
Two Hundred Seventy-Seventh Entry

I can't get this song out of my head. Great song.

I'm crazy for this little lady
I'm freaking for my little baby
'Cause she makes me feel good
She's so fine
Don't need all my other ladies
I'm begging for this little lady
'Cause I tell you she's cool
She's divine

I know she's a super lady
I'm weak and I've gone hazy yeah
I'm crazy for that lady
She's chic but she's not shady yeah
Sophisticated lady
And she makes me feel good
She's so fine

Never knew there was such a lady
That would make me want to straighten
Out my life at this time but I find
I'm thinking 'bout this pretty lady
I would love her to have my baby
'Cause you know she's no fool
she's refined

I know she's a super lady
I'm weak and I've gone hazy yeah
I'm crazy for that lady
She's chic but she's not shady yeah
Sophisticated lady
And she makes me feel good
she's so fine

Yeah
Don't you know she blows my mind
All the time
'Cause she makes me feel good
Like a real woman should
Yeah
She's so mine

Lady by Lenny Kravitz

3.16.2005

Two Hundred Seventy-Sixth Entry

I'm approaching panic mode with my exam. I haven't studied at all the last two weeks. I haven't even cracked my seismic and surveying books. I've decided that the exam in April will not be all or nothing. I'm gonna take the stupid thing with the expectation that I will have to sit for the exam again. It's the only way I'm not going to go ballistic. Besides, if I pass one or two components, then it was still worth the while. I can concentrate harder on the components I failed.

For those of you who don't know, there are four components in the exam: Civil Engineering Principles(8 hours), Seismic(2.5 hours), Surveying(2.5 hours) and Ethics(Take Home). I've been concentrating on the CE Principles. If I pass that one, I can become registered in most of the other states in the US. But in California, I need the other three. Hooray for California!

3.12.2005

Two Hundred Seventy-Fifth Entry

iTunes sucks. Just when I thought legal downloadable music would fill a void in my life, iTunes has to go and suck. The jury is still out on Napster.

Yesterday I tried to download a song. It is only available from the UK store. Uh-uh. Not gonna do it. I checked the FAQ's and the bastard music industry (record companies and such) do not want music not produced or distributed by an American record company available to American consumers. If a band from another country gets an American company to release their album here, then it's OK, but until that happens, their music is off limits.

What about import CD's you ask? Well, those are legal because the record companies didn't stop the imports before they started. But since downloading music is a brand new industry, the record companies can control it and impose their own rules on it from the beginning.

It pisses me off because I was just looking through all the other countries iTunes pages and there are bands that I could potentially buy from. I'm willing to bet that even my parents would want to buy some Portuguese music from the Portuguese iTunes site but can't because of the stupid rules.

Music downloading was supposed to bring the world together! All of a sudden Kazaa and the like seem more appealing and almost worth the risk.

2.18.2005

Two Hundred Seventy-Fourth Entry

It's been a while.

Last Saturday I watched "Sideways". It is a very very good and funny movie. The sex parts and the violent golf scene are the best. It was fun to watch the movie and be able to say that I used to live in that area. It makes me want to move back there.

Last Tuesday I watched "The Aviator". It is a very very good movie. I was truly impressed with it. Leo "King of the World" DiCaprio did a very very good job as young OCD Howard Hughes. I really felt bad for him as he descended into insanity, and was frustrated when his periods of sanity were ruined by some bizzare trigger that threw him back into OCD-ness.

I really really really want to see "Million Dollar Baby", really want to see "Ray" and am lukewarm about "Finding Neverland" after a poor review from Amy. See a pattern? Yes, they all are nominated for Best Picture of the Year at the Academy Awards. After those, I really really want to see "Hotel Rwanda" and "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind". And then "Kinsey" and "Maria Full of Grace". "Vera Drake", "Closer" and "Being Julia" are not available on DVD or in the theaters. And that covers all the acting categories. I am also intrigued by "The Motorcycle Diaries"...I think it's out on DVD.

I've been flirting with changing my voter registration to Libertarian as of late because that's just what happens when you work for the gov't. And I am "sick...and tired" of my Albertson's union. And I want to pay lower taxes. And I want to stop being the worlds police. And I want people to do what they please with their bodies(drugs, sex, abortions, tattoos, whatever). And I want to bring back the right to privacy, completely. And I want to deregulate handguns. And I want people to marry who they please. And I want to dump some of the environmental regulations. And I want to hear "fuck, asshole, and shit" on TV. I want to have an economy where survival of the fittest rules supreme. I want to let anyone who wants to come in to MY country, come in. I want to remove the government from the lives of Americans. It just makes more sense. Both Democrats and Republicans say that the other side is too controlling of the people, but they are both right. Tree-huggers and Bible-beaters both are pushing their own agendas and trying to dictate how people live their lives. "Save the Whales" and "Choose Life" are identical in the eyes of a Libertarian. The Libertarian slogan should be "Save Me".

Tomorrow promises to be a great day. Full of reading, writing and studying. Enjoy your weekends everyone! Happy Birthday Louish! and Congratulations!!!

2.09.2005

Two Hundred Seventy-Third Entry

Overwhelmed is the only word to describe how I feel today, and have felt all week.

It all started on Friday...

Paula asked me to babysit for her Friday night. She had to work until 8:30, and afterwards was going to go out with some work friends. I worked at A's the night before, and did not get much sleep that night, nor the whole week for that matter. The last thing I was that day was patient.

I got to Paula's at 5pm and Calvin was getting ready for work. I brought two frozen pizzas for us to have for dinner(if you are ever in an Albertsons, you must try the Essencia brand Supreme Pizza...very good). Well, the girls don't like combination pizza. I actually knew this, but I was having a week long brain fart and completely forgot. So, after cooking the combo pizza twice(i forgot to remove the cardboard), I made some pepperoni pizza that they had in the freezer for the girls. They went to town on it.

After dinner the four of us talked for a while and then I started to get sleepy. I decided that we should all play a game. The game was called....Naptime!! It was 7:30, and I was dead tired. I convinced Georgia and Shaley to play with me, and banished Dalila to her room(she just turned 13 and thinks everything is stupid.) It wasn't that hard to convince Georgia and Shaley this was a fun game. They are only 5 and 7, and if you just laugh enough, they think they are having a good time. I tried to nap, but I'll tarred and feathered if Shaley didn't just have to keep getting up to get her dollies! It just so happens that her dolly somehow "fell" behind me, and that I happened to be laying on the part of the sofa that was Shaley's favorite. Georgia was a real peach(get it?) and played the game very well. I probably only got about 10 minutes of sleep total before their cousins Stephanie and Michelle(ages 15 and 14, respectively) decided to walk to the house and throw it into disarray.

Shaley and Georgia just adore Steph and Michelle, and it wasn't long before they were up and running around. About 10 minutes later, Cindy came over and brought Nathan. He is a little devil child. Christ almighty that boy can howl! It was all over by then. Three teens and three "babies". All trying to talk at the same time, all trying to get each others attention.

Paula got home at around 9pm and got ready for her night out. The girls and Nathan were a little quieter when she got there. After Paula left, Nathan went home, and Dalila, Stephanie and Michelle went to spend the night at my aunts house. It was just Shaley, Georgia and me. They played video games and I watched Collateral.

By 10pm, the two started fighting about the computer game. I told Shaley to let Georgia play and she started to cry. She came over and I knew she wouldn't last long. I told her that it would be her turn in 10 minutes. She gave me a hug and climbed into my lap and we watched Collateral(don't worry, it had just started, no killing yet). But I knew that Shaley would go to sleep before 10 minutes, and she did. I carried her to bed. Now it was just Georgia and me. After a while, she got tired of the computer and wanted to play Playstation. I told her that we could play after the movie was over. I suggested that she go lay down in bed and when the movie was over I would get her to play video games. She actually went to bed and fell asleep.

So now it was just me. Tom Cruise had already killed the guy in the apartment, and the guy in the penthouse and was on his way to the jazz club. I had seen all that already, I was just waiting for the end.

So I decided to get drunk and eat the rest of the pizza. Reflecting upon it now, I don't think that was a good idea, but oh well. There were no emergencies, no house fire.

Collateral was a very very good movie. The ending was very very very good. Is it oscar calibre for Jaime Foxx? Yeah...only just barely though.

Paula got home at 3:30am. I was still awake and just hanging on. Shortly after that, Calvin came home. They went to bed and I slept on the sofa. Their stupid dog, Ginger, kept waking me up. Goddamn dog! I swung at her to get her away, but she couldn't take the hint. I got some sleep though.

The first thing I see when I woke up was Shaley taking the blanket off of me and looking for her doll. It was 7:30am. I nearly yelled at her. I calmly told her to go back to bed. But within half an hour, everyone was awake. I had no choice but to get up.

Paula made biscuits and gravy though....mmmmm....drool....

I hung out for a while, and went home at noon. I tried to nap, but couldn't. I had to be at work at 3:30.

I didn't sleep much, and went to work. Work pissed me off, as it has been of late. No recognition for the hardworking, just for the ass-kissing.

I got home after 10pm. I stayed up to watch SNL and I was impressed by Paris Hilton's acting. She didn't seem afraid to make fun of herself. Either that or she was completely oblivious.

I get to sleep at about 12:30(taped the rest of SNL) and got up at 7am to go study with Kuna at the office. Semi-productive morning. I was really tired. I got home at about 1pm, and baked my other frozen pizza. I did beaucoup laundry, and dishes, and watched shows I taped earlier in the week. I had to be at work at 5pm and I wanted to tape the Super Bowl. After eating the pizza, I got a call from Tia Luisa, inviting me to a Super feast. I was stuffed from the pizza, but I needed to have some of Debbies famous ribs. So off I went in the middle of the 1st quarter to Tia's, where I engorged myself on ribs, chicken wings, beans and potato salad. I somehow got to work without being able to walk. I was ready to burst.

Work sucked, as it has been. I got home at 11pm. Couldn't get to sleep til about 12:30.

Woke up at 7:20. I realized that I had run out of cigarettes the night before. Without a single thought, I quit smoking. I put on the patch and walked on out that door.

These have been the worst three days of my life.

Monday, the first day of quitting, Marcia, the boss, came to me and said that she needs plans and specs for TWO projects by Friday. Ok...I nearly freaked. There is no way I can get it done by Friday. Besides, I'm not here this Friday. Monday night I had to experience the joy of bagging groceries for ungrateful bitches, and the customers are pretty bad too.

Tuesday was worse than Monday for nicotine withdrawal, and today was the worst so far. Even worse than the last time I tried to quit. If I don't kill myself, I'm going to die trying.

Bright spot: I met a gorgeous girl at Albertson's. I guess met is not quite the right word...bagged her groceries while making a complete ass of myself is probably a more appropriate term.

Lent sacrifices: The usual Chocolate. But new in '05, eating after 8pm.

1.30.2005

Two Hundred Seventy-Second Entry

I'm at work again, studying. I got here at about 7:30 this morning. I am dead tired. I worked til 11 last night. My body just aches.

Sacramento on Thursday was a big success. DSA signed off on my plans. Excellent.

I've started thinking about a vacate in May. Not a big flying one, just a boring stay at home or go up to the Bay vacate. I don't think I've ever taken one of those. I'll be done with the big test, so maybe it would be a good thing to just veg for a week or more. I'll try to do it around my birthday.

GOD I'm tired.

Kipp called in "sick" last night, leaving us a bagger short. Apparently, his car broke down in Sacramento and he couldn't get it fixed. He called last night to find out his hours for today, and I could hear a girl laughing in the background. Car troubles my foot. I guess I'd do the same thing if there was a possibility of sex.

I am soooo tired. I was hustling last night to get all of my closing stuff done. In 40 minutes, I cleaned all the checkstands, put away all of the go-backs(about 30 items,) and got all the carts(about 20). Like I said, my body hurts.

There is a new mandate that says all baggers must stamp their sweeps and actually do them. There has been a lot of stamping sweeps but not actually doing them. The new Store Director is cracking down. Rumor has it he is actually going to start looking at the surveillance tapes to see if we are actually doing them. I wouldn't really mind so much, but there are some baggers who just get away with anything just because they shmooze with the right people. Somehow I think the new mandate won't apply to them.

Next week I get my Albie's benefits! I think I'll go see a podiatrist first, an accupuncturist, maybe a little allergist, and a pinch of dermatologist. Believe me, by the time the year is out, I will have seen any type of doctor you can think of. Any suggestions?

1.22.2005

Two Hundred Seventy-First Entry

I am currently in my office at work digesting my Panda Express lunch. Why on a Saturday you ask? I am studying for my exam with Kuna (a coworker). He wants to meet up to study on a regular basis, and today is the first day of that studying. We are studying for different exams, but it helps to have someone to help you not procrastinate.

We couldn't think of a place around here conducive to all day studying. All the libraries close early, and restaurants and coffee places are too distracting. It sucks. The only place we could come up with is here, the lovely TC Gvmt. Plaza building. I guess it's alright. I have access to the internet, and that's good.

I've already covered 5 chapters out of the 89 in my Reference Manual. WooHoo!! It's all easy stuff though. Background...like vectors, algebra, metric system, calculus. Nothing engineering yet. But I can't wait!

1.18.2005

Two Hundred Seventieth Entry

I didn't do squat this weekend. I worked at Albertsons, entertained my parents and went to my grandparents 60th anniversary party. It was fun hanging out with all my family.

Oh yeah, I watched Paparazzi. Don't waste your time. I watched Meet the Parents on USA. It was really funny, but probably even more so without all the censoring and commercials.

Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday I am closing at Albertsons. For some reason, they gave me Friday and Saturday off. I am a little upset about that. I would much rather work on Friday, Saturday, Sunday and one week night than four weeknights. I think they're trying to fuck with me.

Good/Frustrating news. I gave Steve a ride home from Albertsons on Sunday night and he told me that Wes(fourth in command, manager) said that I work hard and I should be made a clerk. Golly gee Wes, thanks for the compliment. But when exactly is that gonna happen??

Funny thing. Wes' favorite saying is "Git 'er done". He says that for everything. It also explains why he's been in a good mood lately....hehehe.

A cashier, who shall remain nameless, has vowed to get Chad fired. I won't hold my breath. He was pissing me off this weekend. Almost back to his old lazy tricks. Hmmph!

Back to work...

1.10.2005

Two Hundred Sixty-Ninth Entry

I would like to give a shout out to Rouja.

I am drunk. Drunk is good.

As of last week, there was only one person that I didn't get along with at Albertsons. His name is Chad. Chad is an extremely lazy 16 year old that is only working because his parents are forcing him too. Not that he needs to, his parents are filthy rich. Anyway...

Last Wednesday I decided that my ill-will towards Chad should end. Partly because he was showing great improvement in the grocery bagging arena, and partly because I felt bad for him being picked on by all the Checkers. Brad, a checker, was laying into him verbally about how he needs to do what all the checkers ask of him. I stuck up for Chad because all Chad seems to know how to do is stand around and cop a tude. That ended the silent hostility between me and Chad.

Today, our truce is still intact but wearing thin. Today was a particularly tude-iful Chad day and a lot of the baggers weren't havin it. There was even a mini-shoving match between the well-liked Kipp(a bagger, 20 years old) and Chad. Kipp lamented the fact that Chad cannot be the subject of a Kipp ass-whoopin' because he is a minor. But Kipp swears that if Chad was 18, Kipp would kick his ass all over the place. Yes, it was as "high school" as it sounds. The rest of the night Johnny(another bagger, 19 years old) and I were chanting "Kick his ass" under our breaths. Very very high school.

Tomorrow night I am closing, I have Tuesday and Wednesday off and am closing again on Thursday. I have Friday off and am working a relatively early shift on Saturday. Pretty cherry schedule if you ask me.

Sleep time..

1.06.2005

Two Hundred Sixty-Eighth Entry

I was loaned a DVD of a christian comedian called Brad Stein about three weeks ago. I have yet to see it. Every day I am reminded by Blas(the office religious zealot) to watch it. I really have no desire to watch it, but will do so because I told him I would. He probably thinks that by watching it I'll probably start rollin' around on the ground and speaking in tongues and swear off my evil ways of watching TV and DVD's with the word 'ass'(gasp!) in them.

The last month and a half have been really draining; physically, mentally and financially. I spent over $700 on presents. I love to give presents, especially to little kids, i.e. Georgia and Shaley and Dalila; the look of excitement on their faces is priceless and the hugs and kisses are even better. I like to receive presents, don't get me wrong, but not as much as giving.

I was really excited about my Festivist gift. I have the Nikka Costa CD in my truck right now and it is one of the best CD's I have ever heard. Love it, love it, love it. The sad songs make me sad, the happy songs make me happy. Thank you Lamar!

New Years Eve was fun. Hanging out with Jen, Lisa and Amy was fun. I got drunk and erased all evidence of it. Sorry Lisa, no blackmail.

Getting back to the daily grind after a very enjoyable holiday season really sucks.

2005 is going to be a busy year. My PE exam is the only thing on my list for the first third of the year. I'm afraid I won't be any fun at all through April. I'll be studying for the exam my every spare moment. Quitting smoking and paying debt down are other priorities for the first two thirds of this year. The final third is full of difficult choices: real estate investments, change in career, education continuation, relocation to the bay area-out of state-abroad. It's going to be tough, but at least all of these choices are connected. One choice will dictate the others.

2005 will not be a very social year. I plan on staying at home in Tulare a lot and spending less money in return. When I want to get away, I'll go to the other place I feel real comfortable, the coast. Meaning, SLO. It's only half the distance than to the bay area...I could go and come on the same day. I could probably even do some studying there.

Have a good year everyone!